Birds-Eye-View is a collection of hidden excerpts from the MHG archives. Unpublished, unrevised, raw work posted everyday. Every morning since 2010 I have been writing three hand-written pages a day. Yellow legal pads are hidden in all the crevices of my house and I'm running out of places to hide. Birds-Eye-View is my attempt at sharing moments from these pages. For those of you looking for eclectic content from the inner sanctum of a woman—follow the birds. If you would like to donate to the continued publication of Birds-Eye-View send donation via Cash App to $MelissaHunterGurney or Venmo @gambaforest. ~ MHG
Bluejay
There is something about the dream, the reality and the memory—a trivium of the lower division—grammar, rhetoric and logic—connected threads running parallel and perpendicular. A droplet of water creates a soggy remnant where one instance seems more alive than it actually was. Or maybe it is alive and we are the soggy remnants. It’s like your eyes are squinting inside yourself—trying to see a period or a comma.
Gannet
She understood the reality of the shared experience yet she was directly opposed to the philosophy that followed, a philosophy that undeniably involves utilizing a purposefully generated discontent to influence spending by offering unnatural and expensive alternatives to keeping something that can’t actually be kept
Black-Necked Stilt
After she was diagnosed — her entire adulthood felt like one big cancer. That’s what she said to her therapist. It felt like every relationship, every job, every grocery store excursion was in place to help me die.
Great Blue Heron
Something regurgitated—used to court a lover and feed their eventual young. Predatory flowering—a carnivorous plant that receives nutrients by trapping and capturing, blossoming at the end of long stalks—bilaterally symmetrical flowers with fused petals. Conspicuous mechanisms designated as active or passive.
Gull-Billed Tern
Alone feels like nature—immeasurable, mysterious, unrevealed. I cherish alone like I cherish fern gullies and swimming holes, like I cherish the skunk cabbage that emerges from the forest floor in early spring—Symplocarpus Floetidus.
Fiery Billed Aracari
My feet drag through wet morning grass and the whispers sound like screams. No one can hear them but me.
Purple Gallinule
They don’t see how much pleasure their lover feels when they stuff their face—stick the food in so quickly they have to store it in their cheeks and swallow little bits at a time.
Brown Pelican
The three of us stayed still minus the boar’s breath which I continued to feel moving up and down my torso.
Large Billed Puffin
As if we create our own universe, our own sun to revolve around, our own jungles inculcated with an immortal photosynthesis that generates something more powerful than oxygen.
Colombian Hummingbird
We are all technically murderers so why are only some of us behind bars.
American Swan
Today, as I sit here and write this, I struggle to think of a human who shows their love outwardly. I have no idea what love for something looks like on other people.
Artwork from the Audubon Archives for now — Melissa Hunter Gurney's birds coming soon.
All writing © Melissa Hunter Gurney 2022